Let me tell you a story about a girl who seemed to have no aim in life.

Long, long ago, in a faraway land, there lived a girl who live her life simple. She cared about nothing and thus was never bothered about anything. For her whole life, she lived her life the way her family wanted her to. They wanted an obedient daughter. So, she became an obedient daughter. Never once had she disobeyed them. They wanted a smart daughter. So, she studied like hell and was part of the elite group in her school. They wanted a caring daughter. So, she became that too. In time, she came to believe that its her duty to be the best in whatever she does. Bad results are not tolerated. Disobeidence means punishment and sufferings. The lacked of caringness symbolises inhumanity. She had only one goal in life which is to be the best in her family.

Some say, she should not be living in this way. She was told to live life the way she wanted. Life was not all about success. Well, the problem is that she does not know how to live her life in other means. So, to all the 'other people' out there, there are reasons to an individual's way of living. Give the individual some time. He or she might changed for the better or might not even change at all. Only the future can tell us.

I know that i am NEVER lucky. I rarely won any luckydraw events. I never won any TOTOs. And in multiple choice questions, if i were to simply pick an answer out of the four or five choices given, i hardly gotten them correct. But still, i thought that i am neither unlucky nor lucky. Whatever i have today, none of it comes from pure luck. I never believed in luck. However, now i seriously doubt my luck. First, i was unlucky grouped with someone which i cannot stand. Next, i am stranded in the University until two when i should have been on my way back home at twelve (irritating shuttle bus). What should i do now? i have about an hour plus to kill. Oh God, save me!

Life can be a funny thing. When you least expect it, it gives you what you desire the most in the world several months ago. During that moment, you would be so stunned that you started grinning like an idiot for some time. You would laugh at insignificant things and pay closer attention to stuffs that you would normally brushed aside. After several hours, you would look at your granted desire, thinking what is the matter with you. You should have moved on with life, leaving that particular desire in the drain. Why does it still effects you that much? Why? There's only one reason for it. You are unable to forget the past. Deep inside, you still yearn for it. You cannot let go. All i could say is LET IT GO, PARTNER!

Four subjects down and one more to go!! This calls for a celebration! I am so glad that i can finally kick my economics, legals and maths aside! Soon i'll be kicking accounts too. Muaahahaha! Then it will be just me and my beloved internet, manga, anime and drama! Nothing shall come in between us anymore!!!

Life is pretty bad for me now. Firstly, the virtual game which i am playing crashed and many thanks to this, i lost 2 days of development. Some may say, its just two days but it isn't JUST two days. Its two days of a hell lot of improvement in my village. NOw, i have to redevelop my village. Little did i know that this is only the beginning of my misfortunes. Next was me being constantly irritated by a certain fellow in my class. That ridiculous fellow kept on bombarding me with stupid questions so much so that in the end, i had to isolate myself as far away as possible away from that person. Well, that is not all. Not long after that, my laptop adapter stopped functioning and that the end of my laptop usage as the battery of my laptop had certain problem making it totally dependent on the adapter. So, no adapter = no laptop. I do wonder, what else does the world had installed for me? Bring it on! I am ready!

The year is coming to an end. Soon, i might be embarking into goodness-know-which degree. Time sure flies when you least expect it. One minute i was still in NS and next I am in Taylor's studying SAM. In another blink of an eye, SAM is coming to an end. I would be leaving my classmates which could be a sad yet a joyous event as there are some classmates of mine which i am clearly not all that fond of. Most of all, i am leaving my high school life further and further behind. I just wished that i could turn back time and live through high school again. High school is the best place for one to be. It is in high school that i meet the best of the best people and it is my greatest hope that the friends i had met back then would continue to keep in touch with one another despite of the distance and the changes that they had undergo.

SAM : Self Abuse Matriculation
SPM : Self Praise Matriculation
Difference- SPM puts you in a delusion that you;re good but SAM slaps you in the face and say "you're not that good after all eh" (Sebestian Teh 2010)