Life can be a funny thing. When you least expect it, it gives you what you desire the most in the world several months ago. During that moment, you would be so stunned that you started grinning like an idiot for some time. You would laugh at insignificant things and pay closer attention to stuffs that you would normally brushed aside. After several hours, you would look at your granted desire, thinking what is the matter with you. You should have moved on with life, leaving that particular desire in the drain. Why does it still effects you that much? Why? There's only one reason for it. You are unable to forget the past. Deep inside, you still yearn for it. You cannot let go. All i could say is LET IT GO, PARTNER!

Four subjects down and one more to go!! This calls for a celebration! I am so glad that i can finally kick my economics, legals and maths aside! Soon i'll be kicking accounts too. Muaahahaha! Then it will be just me and my beloved internet, manga, anime and drama! Nothing shall come in between us anymore!!!

Life is pretty bad for me now. Firstly, the virtual game which i am playing crashed and many thanks to this, i lost 2 days of development. Some may say, its just two days but it isn't JUST two days. Its two days of a hell lot of improvement in my village. NOw, i have to redevelop my village. Little did i know that this is only the beginning of my misfortunes. Next was me being constantly irritated by a certain fellow in my class. That ridiculous fellow kept on bombarding me with stupid questions so much so that in the end, i had to isolate myself as far away as possible away from that person. Well, that is not all. Not long after that, my laptop adapter stopped functioning and that the end of my laptop usage as the battery of my laptop had certain problem making it totally dependent on the adapter. So, no adapter = no laptop. I do wonder, what else does the world had installed for me? Bring it on! I am ready!

The year is coming to an end. Soon, i might be embarking into goodness-know-which degree. Time sure flies when you least expect it. One minute i was still in NS and next I am in Taylor's studying SAM. In another blink of an eye, SAM is coming to an end. I would be leaving my classmates which could be a sad yet a joyous event as there are some classmates of mine which i am clearly not all that fond of. Most of all, i am leaving my high school life further and further behind. I just wished that i could turn back time and live through high school again. High school is the best place for one to be. It is in high school that i meet the best of the best people and it is my greatest hope that the friends i had met back then would continue to keep in touch with one another despite of the distance and the changes that they had undergo.

SAM : Self Abuse Matriculation
SPM : Self Praise Matriculation
Difference- SPM puts you in a delusion that you;re good but SAM slaps you in the face and say "you're not that good after all eh" (Sebestian Teh 2010)

20th of September

I had known all these while that i am rather 'slow' in certain stuff but i certainly didn't expect to be this 'slow'. I had been away from home from almost a year and only now i am infected by a contagious disease called homesick. In all my life, i had never been homesick. Not once that happen. It is during the Raya break that i am infected by this terrible disease. So, i am rather new to this homesick business. What do i do actually? Sit miserably in a corner? Cry myself to sleep? Thankfully, i am currently too busy to even have time to be sorry for myself. Trial exams are up and the finals are around the corner. I guessed i'll be much too occupied studying than to be homesick. Argh! Lord, do bless me in my exams. I really need it.

2nd of September

Life is just too lovely for me. First, i made a STUPID mistake in maths which might caused me ELEVEN marks. Then, i got 16.5 for a presentation which is ZERO POINT FIVE marks away from getting an A. Soon after that, i was told that i MISSED getting a set of trial papers as i left class too early and was told to return to class to get it. And so, I walked all the way to my class which is coincidentally situated in the highest floor just to find the door LOCKED. Then, i walked all the way down to the office to ask for help only to find myself being directed to another office in the first floor. At the first floor, i was once again directed to the ground floor to yet another office. I was then told to wait outside my classroom. So, I walked all the way to the HIGHEST floor again to wait. Then, someone came to open the door for me. I entered just to find the papers MISSING. That someone who opened the door suspected that maybe he had accidentally threw the papers away. And so, we went to search for the papers in the rubbish bin.After searching for a while, we still couldn't find it. Thus, we gave up. I went to a friend's apartment to borrow his papers and went to photostat them. Just as i thought all of my misery had ended, i opened facebook and found out all my trouble in searching for the paper is a waste as one of my friend had already taken a set of the papers for me. Isn't life lovely?

30th of August

A day before merdeka! I should be feeling joyous now. Somehow, i am just not in the merdeka spirit. I have so many tests and assignments that even the word merdeka seemed to be pissing me off. Its mocking my situation! Sighed. Life is unfair. Why am i not born rich like some certain people? Then, i would not need to be bothered with my results. This is injustice! I want to be reborn!!!

28 July

Being 18 years' old does not seemed as great as one often heard. When, one is below 18, he or she would be wondering what is life like at 18. When they are 18, they would be thinking 'Okay, i am 18. So, what??'. I know this based on personal experience. I had been 18 since the 28 of February and i do not feel any different. In fact, i felt worst. Life in a government school is so 'spoon-feeding' compared to life in college. Now, i am forced to do my own researches and basicly study without much help compared to last time where i had tuition teachers. Here, i am also forced to manage my own life aka food and clothes. I have to bear responsibility for all my actions. My parents are no longer by my side to take charge. Some might find this sense of freedom overwhelming while others find it entertaining. To me, i would rather be stucked in a bird-cage with a loving owner but who can stop time for me? Nobody. Thus, i had to survive on my own. No matter how unpleasant or miserable my life is now, i have no choice but to go on. I cannot control my present life, but i can certainly control my future life by doing my best now.

7th of July

Life is so pathetic for me. I could never seemed to achieve the grades that i wanted. I almost gotten my first A in economics! Then, just because i didn't write 'in conclusion' i lost my A. It was so near yet so far for me to get an A. Maybe i didn't try my best. Maybe, i should study damn hard. Ah, i don't know. All i know is that if i don't get my A ASAP, i'll surely die in my parents' hands.

5th of July

My life had pretty much remained the same from the past few months. It is always exam, assignments, deadlines and presentations. I supposed for those who do not know me well, they might actually think that i am a hermit crab or worst a bookworm. But then again, maybe after coming to KL, i did changed. Whether it is for the better or for the worst, that i do not know. Though, i certainly hope that all my efforts in this course will be paid off by the end of the year.

19th of June

What would it be like to know that a friend of yours will never ever come back? What would it feel like to know that you will never see your friend's smiley face again? What would you do after knowing that your friend had left this world forever?

These are painful thoughts of an individual who lost a friend through a tragedy. I cannot imagine the horror of living with after a death of a friend. Would you be able to move on? I may not know the victim well but i do know someone who is close to him. With this, i would like to extend my condolences to the survivors of the tragedy. Let us all toast to the boy who made things possible with a kind heart for all of his friends. May you rest in peace. I am sure that your friends will never forget you.

2nd of June

I been having Malaysian Studies from 8am to 3pm everyday for this entire week. My sir teaches at the speed of light. One moment we would be discussing Malayan Union and next we are already at the formation of Malaysia. The only great thing about him is that he does not care if his students were playing, chatting, onlining or sleeping in class. Due to this, many students took advantage of this and never even paid an ounce of attention to him. Though, i usually did pay some attention to him but i must admit, there was a time where i accidentally drifted off to sleep.One must not blame me for that as the history of Malaysia is not something that would be interesting to students like me. Put mangas and anime in front of me, i can guarantee you that i could stay awake for the entire night! :) In a couple of hours time, i would be having a quiz on Malaysian Studies which i can hardly remember and in further more hours after that, i have a BBQ party organized by my classmates. Yay! Food, food, here i come!

30th of May

Humph. I think there is something wrong with me. Usually busy people have no time for other things besides studying. I do wonder how in the world i could allocate time to play Dragonica. Haha. My last few day basicly begun with me checking my facebook. Then, i would feel guity and start studying. Somewhere at 5, i would start to be restless. Finally, i would speed though my studying and begun to play Dragonice till late at night. Is this good? I sincerely hope that i would not regret my actions later.

27th of May

Hmph. My life evolved from miserable to extreme depression. Being a March intake SAM student is not an easy matter. It is not even a moderate nor a hard matter. It is in fact classified as supreme diificult. My first month here was not too bad. It was rather acceptable. Then, came the second month, which is busy but still manageable. Now, i had been given a sneak preview of my future life during the holidays and for the third month. Guess what i saw? I saw more miseries! I have tonnes and tonnes of assignments AND exams AND projects. My one week break is not considered as a holiday anymore. Its more like 24/7 of completing projects, finding articles, studying and certainly doing homework as coincidently, the datelines are immediately after the holiday. So, i guessed i will be suferring soon.

18th of May

I cannot beleive that i had been living without internet for almost 2 months!!!! I am going crazy. I missed good-old-facebook. Sighed. I had been cut out from the entertainment world for so long that now i felt like i am living in the stone age. There is like nothing for me except to study. Sighed. Assignments one after another. Exams one after another. I have not even finished my ESL investigating project and now i am given another group assignment. UGH! This is madness! SPM seemed like heaven to me now.

15th of April

Yay! My internet connection is coming!!! I can't wait for the exact moment to arrive. ^.^ Holidays is coming too. :) I am rather sick of studying. I want to go out and have fun. The only problem is my lecturers. I have absolutely no idea why they like to torture their poor students like me. Do you know that the January intake students got 4 months plus to complete their investigating project? We, the mieserable March intake was given only one month plus or maybe even less to complete the very same project. And the January intakes certainly do not have exams every single week unlike us the poor March intakes. We have lots and lots of exams and assessments per week. I am pretty sure that the January intakes got MORE then one week to perpare for their legal presentation aka collaborative task. We got LESS then a week to prepare for this. This is highly unfair! I want to stage a protes! This is against my human right!

14th of April

My life had changed from busy to VERY busy. T^T I have to complete 4 sets of legal homework, a collaborative legal task with involves presentation, an investigating English project, multiple Mathematics questions, several Accounting homework, study for Economics and sleep. Obviously, i would need some sleep, right? For the homeworks, its easy for me to complete them. Its the projects that are the threats. For legal, its a group assignment, so, i can't do it alone (i would very much prefer to do it individually) while for English, its would be one hell of a task to paraphrase 2k worth of essay (i took almost 2 hours just to paraphrase 4 paragraphs). These have marks allocated which will be added to my final marks. So, in other words, i cannot slack. Sighed. That is the end of my social life and the beginning of my studious life.

11th of April

Hump. Tomorrow got economics exam. Sighed. Can i do better this time? i have to write a 4 paged essay in 45 minutes. The last time i tried writing the essay, i took more then 1 hour. How in then world am i going to finish my test on time tomorrow? Now that is a major problem. I guessed i will just have to pray hard. Besides all that, I did so so in my legal. Sighed. I maybe the highest in class, but i cam not any happier. I am HALF a mark away from scoring an A! 16 and a HALF over twenty! UGH! There should be a law against this. The HALF system is torturing. I do not understand wny the rounding up marks system is not used in the SAM programme. UGH! I missed good old SPM days.

10th of April

My life is like a rollercoaster. One minute i am upright, the next minute i am upside down. I have just received news that my ESL investigating project is due in two weeks time. I have to complete all my referances, quotations, survey, charts and the 2k essay. Actually all this is very esay if plagiarism isn't a problem. Many thanks to this problem, i have to paraphrase all 2k words of my essay and parapharasing isn't easy. One, you have to change entirely all the words in the source ( very unlike 'rumusan'). Two, you are not allowed to change the meaning of the author. Three, you must acknowledge the original writer in citation. Four, you are not allowed to personalise your essay. Five, the essay must be based on souces and is objective. Six, you cannot lie in your essay. Ugh! Can you get the picture? I can go on and on with paraphasing up to a hundred or maybe even more. And the one very mini problem is that aside with this investigating project, i have plenty of exams ( aren't esay al all )to keep me occupied as well. All of my exams are counted in my finals and so is the project. So, tell me, how am i to study and at the same time completing my project?

6th of April

I don't feel like waking up at all today. Just felt like skipping class. Even so, in the end, i dragged myself off the bed and walked to Taylor's. Sighed. Tomorrow, i got Mathematics exam. Next Monday (Legal) and Wednesday (Economics) i have exams as well. What the hell! I HAVE EXAMS EVERY WEEK!! Guess who i owe the thanks to for my misery? The government! Stupid people who selected me for NS. Wasting my precious time. What is worst is that they caused my allergies as well. My beautiful skin is still rather spotty if is examined closely. If and if only, i have not been selected for NS, i would be in January intake and I WON'T BE HAVING EXAMS EVERY SINGLE WEEK!!!! Sighed. Annoying government. I shall not cursed the government as i am a good citizen of Malaysia. Ahem ahem, ignoring the government, back to my main problem. ECONOMICS!!!! Exam is coming and i don't think i had proceed much with this subject. I cannot actually concentrate fully on it because i have other exams as well. What am i to do? I need a miracle!

5th of May

Humph! I had gotten back my legal results (17/20). I am the second highest. The highest was a guy, 18 ( a bannana, like me) For unknown reasons, people started coming to me to teach / guide them in their homework. At first, i was fine with it. Now, i find it to be troublesome, wasting a hell lot of my time ( half of the time, they do not understand what i had said and i have to repeat) and is rather annoying. Honestly, i am not a genius. Why do all of them come to me? If i am that smart, i would be getting full marks for all papers and my economics would not be this bad. Sighed. The only good thing about this is that my parents are happy with my results (except my economics) and that this shows that i can actually cope with my SAM (except economics). Ah, economics! I do have a problem with it. That is my main concern for now.

3rd of May

Legal exams today. Once again, i made a stupid mistake. I lost 2 marks from the overall 20 marks . So, in reality i lost 10 marks already because by the end of the day, the 20 marks test will be converted to 100%. Sighed. SAM exams are very costly. Losing one mark will be the same as losing 5 marks or more in the 100%. I missed good-old SPM style. Losing one mark is losing less then half mark in the total marks. The only good thing about today is that i got back my Accounting results! Guess what? I am the highest. Muahahahaha. Though, my marks is not something to be proud of. Its just that my class sucked at Accounting. But still, i can't help it but to feel proud. I got 28/30. I made some stupid mistakes. @.@ I could have gotten 30/30. Hopefully, my legal results would be as good as my Mathematics and Accountings. Honestly, i cannot afford another marks like Economics. Let's hope, that i'll ace my legal.

30th of April

My worst morning ever. I never thought that there would be a day where i would have a morning worst then the morning i had in a week ago. Last time, it was about me waiting for almost half an hour for 'somebody' to come out of my apartment's bathroom when in reality, no one is in it. I honestly thought that was the worst. After today, i am entirely enlightened. For no reason, my irritating electric kettle stop functioning today! I was so desperate that i had to boil water using the rice cooker. It was so dumb. Boiling water with an electic kettle takes about 5 minutes or less. Boling with a rice cooker takes more then 15 minutes. I was so pissed that in the end, i had to cool down by playing offline games. Screw the kettle.

29th of April

UGH!!! I had decided that i'll only follow my classmates aka the saving group or the spending group once a week. Today, for no particular reason, i just followed them and somehow half of the eating group got lost. Man, it was so problematic. The non-lost group had to keep on phoning and sms-ing them. A total waste of my money. That is not all, we have to walk back in the hot sun. It was so terribly hot. What is worst is that the class we entered after our break had a malfunction of air conditional. I rather much eat in Taylor's where its cooling and 'sun-less'.

28ve of April

Life in KL is back to boring mode. I have a date with my lecturer after class to discuss my horrible results in Economics ( More then half of the class were called) so, i guess i'll be going back late today. Sighed. After the consultation, i have to carry piles and piles of economics workbooks home all the way to the end of my hostel in the third floor. Sighed. Then , i have to prepare my own dinner. Sighed. Next, i have to study to improve my economics. Sighed. This is worst then i was in my SPM year. At least during that time i only need to carry books to the first floor and i do not need to worry about food. I guess, i should stop complaining. All these are part of growing up. Sighed. I have always wish that i never have to grow up. A life in Neverland with Peter Pan is my ultimate dream.

27th of April

I calmed down a bit after yesterday's disaster. Accounting exam was okay. I think i had made a stupid mistake in it. Sighed. Anyway, ignoring all that, today Taylor's had brilliantly wasted my time and energy in an irritating prize-giving ceremony. I waited for almost 3 and a half hours just to take my so-called award. At first, i thought it would be worth it when in fact, all that was given to me was a lousy file with a cheapskate photostat-ed pink certificate. Guess what i had to miss when i attended the ceremony? I had to skipped revision for Accounting (this is not that bad) and the worst of all, i had to miss Economics, a subject that i clearly sucked at. I was rather irritated with Taylor's. If they want me to do well in the exams, why did they organized this stupid ceremony? Even if they desperately needed this ceremony, why not put in on the weekends or after class on Friday? I can never understand the adults.

26th of April

Today is definitely one of the worst day of my life. What the hell if going on with me? My economics marks sucks. It was damn bad.( I did not fail) Arrrgh! My parents are going to kill me. How am i going to survive the rest of the year? Damn it. I must really get help for my economics. This cannot go on. I'll die if it continues. On the contrary, my maths was okay. I am a mark away from full marks.( I could have gotten full marks ) But, the disaster in my economics over-shadowed my Maths. I am not even a tiny bit happy. In fact, i feel like crying but even my right to cry was denied. I got accountancy exam tomorrow with tons and tons of homework. I do not have the time to console myself. God, help me!

24th of April

I learnt a valuable lesson today. I had finally l learnt to let go and move on with my life. All this time since the mid term of my form five days until yesterday, i had been living in the past, clinging to the miserable remains of my so-called happy memories. After today, i got the signal that i should move on and accept what had happened. Time does flies whether we want it or not and time changes people. I am not a stubborn fool. I am in fact a sensitive being who understand the way life works. If this is what which is wanted. So, be it.

22th of April

My economics teacher said that my class did rather poorly in the exam (She was actually smiling when she said this!!! Is she being sacastic or what?). Sighed. Just exactly how bad did i did? Actually, that is all that matter to me. I simply do not care about others. The only good thing about this is that i am not the only one suffering from economics. Sighed. Even so, i do not like the fact that i am not able to score in this particular subject. I refused to admit that my economics is poor! I'll strive to be better. There will be no poor results for me! Okay, now that econmonic exam is over, i have Mathematics exam tomorrow, Accounting exam on Monday and Legal exam on the following Monday. Sighed. I ranked my subjects like the following:

Mathematics >>>the easiest
Accountings ^
Legal Studies ^
ESL aka English ^
Economics >>>the hardest

Sighed. Hopefully, the rest of my exams will be smoother than economics. May God Bless Me, Amen!

19th of April

I got a feeling that my career as an economist is coming to an end. Sighed. Do you know that economics is a damn hard subject! Each time i thought i was correct, i was wrong. Each time i thought i was wrong and i changed my answer, i was actually correct. What is wrong with me? How do i study economics? How do i score in economics? Oh God, save me from this place of misery! Now, medicine doesn't sound all that bad to me. @.@ Surely, it could not be worst than this. Worst thing is that, my economics test is on this Wednesday! What do i do? Run? Hide? Scream? I think i'll go with the screaming. AAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!

15 of April

Today had been a weird day for me. Firstly, i crapped too much in class. Then, i had a hard time stopping myself from laughing or smiling when i am looking at a particular lecturer of mine. Haha. Maybe this is mainly due to 'the incident' which happened yesterday and last but not least, my classmates and i inlcuding my teacher got locked out of our classroom today (class got dissmissed!!). >.< Now, about the incident.

The incident actually started with me being too-free-for-good. Everyone was writing intentively while i was staring into space. Just for your infomation, i was not being lazy or anything similar. I had an amazing writing speed. Thus, i finished writing much faster then my other classmates. Okay, back to the story.

And so, i was staring mindlessly until i accidently caught my lecturer's eyes. We were sort of locked in eye contact. At that time, i was not sure that the lecturer was looking at me. So, i did a test. To avoid embarressment, i used a simple test of raising my eyebrows while looking at my lecturer. During that time, it seemed like a great idea to me. I didn't realize what kind of reaction should i be expecting from my lecturer if he/she was really looking at me. So, i did it. Much to my amusement, my lecturer did the same thing back to me. LOL. I was so much amused that i almost laughed out loud. Thank God, i didn't. Instead, i grinned at the lecturer and glanced back at my notes to avoid me bursting into laughter.

The interesting thing is that my this particular lecturer is famous for being strict. I certainly did not expect he/she has humour bones. He/She is the kind that will enter a class and starts glaring till the whole class is silent, the kind who confiscates handphones if were to caught using them and certainly, the kind who would stop teaching and start glaring if someone was talking in class. Do you see my point? All in all, my lecturer is not what he/she looks like. I am positive about that. Mean people do not usually have humour in them. With that, i like my this particular lecturer the most. Haha. If i am not mistaken, today while i was cracking a joke with my classmate, my lecturer was trying to catch my eye. Hoho. Okay, i might be SS about this but i think i got myself a new friend!

14th of April

Hmm. Life had bean rather boring lately. Maybe, this is due to me finally settling into my KL life. Is this good? Haha. Exciting life has its consequences as well. I could still remember the days when i was form one. :)

During that entire year, life was too interesting for me. My friend and i were very adventures in school. We explored every inch of the school. Within the first week of schooling, we were suspected of 'ponteng' class. This is a wow factor, right? LOL. In the second week, we were drilled with questions from the disiplinary teacher who once again suspected us of running away from class. In the third week, we almost got busted for crashing into the Sports Stor. What was most interesting was that everyday, we would go to school as early as 9.30am (classes begin at 12.40pm) and meet up in the library. You might be thinking, wow, such studious students. Well, think again because the reason we were at the library wasn't to read or to study but to play Monopoly. Haha. My sweet memories! We would play till 12.40pm and then we had to run all the way to the classroom. Usually, we escape the monitor's lecture bacause the assistant monitor was part of the monopoly group. We got so expert in monopoly that we added all sorts of regulations in the game. Tax rates, shares and economy reccesion were some of the regulations which were added.Haha. That was one hell of a crazy year!

13th of April

I used to think that i am just a slightly above average student. I alomost can't imagine that there is a species of homo sapiens that are worst then me by 100X or should i say 200X. @.@ After arriving here in Subang Jaya, i discovered that when compared to most of my classmates ( i do not know about other classes ) , i'm almost like a genius. This is highly shocking for me. If i can't do a certain equation, then its most definitely that the whole class can't do it. Even though so, i never act smart around them. If they ask me, then i will answer. If not, i would keep my mouth shut.

This is very different to a particular classmate of mine. This fellow seemed to be 'bull-shitting' all the time. LOL. Sorry, no offence to that human but i find he/she rather irritating. No one will ask for his/her opinion but there he/she will be talking away. And it seemed that whatever i have, he/she seemed to have it as well. For example; I was shortlisted for the JPA interview, so was he/she but he/she did not go for the interview. I used to be in a debating team, so was he/she but did not go to any competitions. I been chosen for NS, so was he/she but he/she claims that he/she got third batch . I read a storybook in class, he/she just had to lecture me about the books that he/she had read. What the hell is wrong with this human? Genetic disorder?

12th of April

UGH! Its Monday again. I have 4 days excluding today to endure before my week ends. What makes the matter worst is that my exams are around the corner too. T^T. Honestly, i would never believe that a day would come when i actually prefer Convent's classes compared to my pre-u classes. At least in Convent, i have my group of friends with me. We could crap the whole day in school. Here, like mentioned in my past posts, i am rather much the sole survivor. I am kind of lonely here. Sighed. Perhaps, i should find myself a group of friends. Haha. Then again, if i do join one of the groups, that is the end of my lovely onlining time during my breaks. I will have to stick to their status quo. So, online or friend? What do you think? @.@

10th of April

Its Saturday. Poor me. I have to walk to Taylor's just to access to internet. Sighed. I can't wait to have my Streamyx fixed. I couldn't imagine how lucky i was back during my school days. During then, i have unlimited access to internet. The only limit was my mother. Then, i have a lazer jet printer, fully at my disposal. The only limit to printing was my father. Most important of all was that i do not need to worry about food and about washing clothes.

Now, life makes me miserable. My access to the internet is very much limited by Taylor's. No gaming. Sometimes, even facebook was obstructed. I have not been able to view my facebook for almost a week now, many thanks to Taylor's. What's worst is that the speed is supreme slow. Next, the printer. Yup, Taylor's do have printers but i have to queue up just to print a document. The terrible thing is that each document cost 10 cents a page. Is Taylor's not earning enough that they have to charge us for everything? And if they want us to pay, shouldn't they set up more machines for us to top up our printing credit? I wanted to top up yesterday but the machine was out of order. I missed my printer at home. Then about food and washing clothes, i cooked daily after class and washed clothes twice a week. I have to fight for a place to hang my clothes. This is very troublesome. I did not know that cooking and washing rather much waste a lot of my time. Now, i had definitely learnt to appreciate my parents and my home.

9th of April

Yay! Today is finally Friday. I have been looking forward to Fridays ever since i started my SAM in Taylor's. Let me give you a slight peek into my point of view regarding my classmates.

Overall, my class is divided into two main groups. Group One is the Spending Group while Group Two is the Saving Group. If you are wondering which group do i belonged to, i do not actually belonged to any of the group. Let's just say that i am a group of my own aka Group 3 the Sole Survivor. In reality, i am actually invited to join either one of the group but i just prefer to mind my own business. If you had known me before, you would know that i do not spend unnessecary money and i am not actually the saving type either as i would in fact spend a lot of money on something that i liked.

Okay, ignoring me, we go on with my classmates. Everyday, The Spending Group will organise 2 trips. The first is during our break the other is when after class ends for the day. Sometimes, they even organised activities in the night. Like their name, all of their trips require one to spend a hell lot amount of money just for a meal. That for me is completely unacceptable. While they would spend money on these trips, they seemed to be unable to spend the same amount of money for their studies aka buying books and etc. They would complain a lot and in the end only buying books that the lecturer insisted for us to buy. Now, that is The Spending Group.

Moving on, is The Saving Group. This group consists of the minority. They are usually found in the Taylor's Cafeteria or the library. They, like me do not believe in spending a lot of money in meals. They are mostly nice people. To tell you the truth, i rather much prefer the latter group.
But still, me and another guy rather be in The Sole Survivors Group. Besides these two groups, there are a few very special individuals which one can find in my class.

One of it is Individual A who never pay attention in class, usually spends his/her time sleeping or talking or staring into space and etc. I do not know what in the world is he/she doing in the SAM programme. To waste money perhaps? Next, we have Individual B and Individual C who talk a lot in class. Not to mention Individual D who is in fact now trying to get close to Individual E. Haha. In conclusion, a class is like a jungle. There is a diversity of lifeforms where each and everyone of them is special. I may not have the same brainwave as them but what i can say is that it has been interesting knowing them. Life is after all unexpected.

8ve of April

I am back in Taylor's once more after leaving on Tuesday evening to Ipoh for the JPA interview. One day of not entering seemed like a lifetime to me. Now, i have to catch up on my homework. This is rather annoying. And about the JPA interview, i guess i could say its a good experience. I reached the Ipoh JPA Center at about 7.30am. The so-called interview was supposed to start at 8am.

Knowing the way our government works, i was not shocked to wait till 8.05am or maybe even later before they finally gave orders for the candidates to move to the second floor and the parents had to wait in the ground floor. And so, we went to the second floor. There we were told to look for our names on the board and signed beside the name. After that, we wasted more time hanging around till they started calling us to our respective floors. I was called to the fifth floor. In the fifth floor, we were called again five at a time to surrender our files to the clerk. Then, more time was wasted while waiting for our turns. I waited till about 10.30am before my name was finally called. Then to my horror, the clerk announced that it was the break time and we have to wait longer. Sighed. At 11.15am, i was finally brought into the interview room with four other people and the interview started. This incident proves to all of us that our government is not efficient

6th of April

Wala! Here i am again in Taylor's blogging as usual. Guess what, our post office system is a system designed to cheat its customers!!! I walked all the way there, in heat and sweat and all i got is an office with non-cooling air-conditionals, no glue and pens with almost dried up ink!!! That's not all, it seemed that the usage white-coloured envelope and brown-coloured envelope have different prices even though its content and size is the same. This is discrimination towards brown-coloured envelope!!! White envelopes are 30 cents while brown envolopes are 50 cents. Where's justice??? This is totally unfair. Now, i have to get myself some white envelopes just to save cost. Pity all those unsold brown envelopes. Nobody is going to buy them anymore and we owe this all to the post office! Boo !!!

5th of April

I am back to my reading storybook-mode! Muahahaha. It has been a long time since i had read anything besides my subjects in SAM. I had almost forgotten the joy of reading. :) Many thanks to Khai for lending me a book. Its a great book. I was more interested in it than my subjects. Hohohoho. I was very much tempted to read in class but naturally, being good and all that, i did not do so. I paid attention to the lecturer. Sighed. I am very much looking forward to my holidays where i do not have to wake up early. But then again, when my holidays arrive, so will my examinations. So, which do i prefer? Holiday and examination or classes and no examinations? That's a tough choice to make.

4th of April

Life without internet makes one more hardworking. Up to now, i have been studying daily! How very unlike me!! Back in my school days, i was never the one to study early. I was always the one who study the day before the exam. Whenever i am free, instead of studying, i would go online, sleep or read a storybook. I do wonder, what has happen to me? Haha. Maybe, this is all a dream.

3rd of April

I finally started on my ESL assignment. Sighed. The only problem is that i hace difficulties in searching for resources in the library. For unknown reasons, ALL the obesity (that is the theme that i had chosen) related books are MIA aka missing in action. According to the catalog in the library there are at least 15 available books but i can even find a single one. Now, i am actually doubting my choice in the theme. Maybe, i should change to environment issues or child abuse. I found many books on these themes. So, what should i do??

Being stubborn as i was, i stayed with the obesity theme and managed to miraclously found 3 books with a tiny sub-chapter about obesity. Sighed.

2nd of April

Well, its Friday. I still do not have my Streamyx. Thus, i am stucked in Taylor's whenever i have to use the internet. Most of the time, i am fine with this. Besides the extremely slow speed and the lacked of privacy, the computers here are in good conditions. But today, i am sort of pissed with 'The Web' aka computer center in Taylors. For goodness know what reason, i cannot view facebook. Sighed. I missed my good-old wireless at home.

Above that all, i am lost with all the assignments. Honestly, college life is way different from SPM life. The only subject that i am very sure about is Advanced Mathematics. Sighed. At least in maths, all i need to do is equations. This is troublesome. I would rather much look forward to the days when i am used to college life and when i have my own internet connections. May God Bless Me! Amen!

1st of April

So, i started my college life. Is it fun??? Many had asked me. So, what do i think? Actually, i have nothing much to say. Its basicly like school life. One would have to study to get good grades. There are fierce lectures aka teachers here too. There are plenty of assignments or also known as homeworks as well. I don't really see the different. The few miserable differences that i can see are that i get to wear my own clothes, i go to college at 7.30am instead of 6.30am in school and leave at 4 or 5 pm depending on the days instead of good-old 2.35pm), i cook myself, i wash my own clothes, and the worst thing is that i get to climb countless of stairs daily(My classes are usually at the highest floor in taylor's and my apartment is on the third floor. Both taylor's and my hostel do not have lifts) ! Is college life fun then? I guess this question is more to the subjective side. Its rather up to one's opinion.

25th of March

My second last night in Taiping. I don't know whether that is a good news or a bad one. :( Basicly, you could say that i am at a lost. I would love to stay young forever and never grow old. Being a kid is much more fun then growing up. I do not understand why most people can't wait to grow old. To me, that is just stupid. Growing up means more responsibilities, more problems and that is certainly not easy at all. Growing up also means that you have to leave your friends behind. No matter how close are you now, you would grow apart. Being kids are very much different. :) One minute you could be strangers, the next minute, you would be best friends. Kids do not think much. They will just laugh and move on with their life. They do not mind bruises and cuts. They could stand the worst of the falls. :)

If you ask me last time, at what age i would like time to stop forever, i would answer immediately 12. There was not even a doubt. But ever since form 4, i changed my mind. My memories from form 4 onwards are more precious to me then all the treasures in the world. I certainly hope that the friend or friends i meet during that whole period will stay with me. It will certainly break my heart if we are enemies in the future. Best of luck to everyone. I will certainly miss Taiping.

24th of March

Hmm, my eldest cousin sister gave birth to a baby boy today! Congratulations to her!! :) Despite of her being so far away in Australia, my aunts and uncles here in Malaysia are very excited with the baby, including my mom. =.= She made me searching for photos in facebook. I have to sacrificed my hamster-eating-sushi game for it. By the end of it, my mother left my room with a satisfied face while i am sad with the score of the game. :( Anyway, i think its all right since my mother don't normally bug me when i am playing though when she actually bug me, its super irritating. @.@

Besides all of the giving birth and me losing the game, i am rather joyful as well. You know, the best way to show appreciation to someone is just a note of thank you and a smile on the face. :) I am very happy that all my hard work in preparing a present for a friend of mine paid off. She's definitely a great friend to have. I am glad that she is my friend. I wish her all the best in her SPM!

18ve of March

Yo!! Today is the birthday of a friend of mine :). So, before i start crapping about my life, i would like to wish her a very happy birthday here. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CSN!!!

Okay, the birthday wish is over. Continue on with my life. Let's see. I fall down goodness-know how many times today. Those falls that i could remember are, 3 times on my right butt (its sore now), 4 times on my right knee (its bruised), several times on my friends and many other times on my face. Even though so, it had been a fun day for me. I can finally skate faster after all those falls. Skating is actually quite fun, ignoring the heat, the crowd and the smelly roller skates.

After all the bumps and bruises, my friends and I took a break in the cinema. We watched 'The Book Of Eli'. The whole movie is about some guy who is on the journey to the west to save the last bible on earth. Overall, the movie is rather plain and uninteresting. I spend most of my time during the movie, adding twist and turns into the movie plot with my friend. The only part i liked about the movie, its the ending. The ending was definitely a shock to all of us. Here's the spoiler is you haven't watched the movie, Eli, the main character, is a blind man. He can't see but he's so great that no one noticed that he's blind. He shoots better then a sighted man. His hearing is amazing. He fights like no other. He could fight a dozen men at a time.He's perfect in every way except for the fact that he's blind.

And here's the update on my birthday presents :) Among the gifts i have received so far were a labu sayong with biscuits and chocolates (from my NS darling and my NS darling rival), a red egg with a red ribbon tied to it (unknown source but i suspect an Alamanda), a jambu (from a malay friend in Seroja), a card (from the Chinese Alamandas), a landyard ( from my NS twin) , a portable harddisc ( from my dad), 2 soft toys (from Alien, Ah Khai and Mr Baa ), a pendrive (from my sis), a laptop cooler ( from my sis), a keychain (from Shenn Ni and Shenn Kuan), a bracelet (from Chen) , Zipper Pals (from TMC) and a fruity lip gloss (from Merpati)

15th of March

Humph. Four days had passed since i received my SPM results. My results are not bad, i think. It wasn't the best nor it was the worst. I am not exactly happy nor i am sad. Let's just say that i got 11A and 8 of them are A+. Ignoring all that, surprisingly, i missed the good-old NS. NS, a place free from parents. NS, a place free from stress. NS, a place where no one bosses you around (excluding the jurulatih and IC squad)

Now back at home, i am being nagged the whole day. Do this, do that. Apply this, apply that. Sighed. Life after getting SPM results isn't all that fun. Day and night, i am forced to fill in forms and when i fill in forms, my handwriting was criticized. I am being scolded for the smallest mistake in the forms. What am i to do? What did i do so wrong that i am being picked on daily? Sighed. I supposed all this is for my own good but i could still complain right?

I can't wait for all this to be over. Hopefully there isn't anything worst then this.

10th of March

UGH!!!! Tomorrow is D-DAY!! SPM results will be released. I do hope that all of my hard work will be paid off. Sighed. There is nothing that i could do now. I could just pray hard. Anyway, ignoring all that, i will post about my birthday celebration in NS. Now, that is a happy thing. :)

Okay, now about my birthday. Ahem ahem. I was born on the 28 of February in the year of 1992. In other words, every year on the 28 of February, i'll be celebrating my birthday. Every year i would celebrate my birthday but so-sorry-to-say, my celebrations are no where near the term 'interesting'. This year was special. During my birthday, i was in NS. I was celebrated as the birthday girl four times!!! It was the best birthday ever!

First, my parents brought food (cake, fried bihun, fried mee, watermelon, red eggs and satay) into the camp for me to celebrate with my friends. And so, we ate and say 5 versions of birthday songs (malay, english, mandarin, cantonese and tamil). Then, somewhere in the afternoon, my beloved dorm aka Alamanda friends organised a surprise party for me and another fellow Alamanda whose birthday is on the 3rd of March. They each contributed in the celebration and designed a card for me with all of their hardwrittings. It was very touching. I totally loved the card. It was very memorable.And so, we ate again (this time KFC, some 'tong sui', red eggs and wan tan mee)

Before going to church in the evening, my fellow ALPHA friends in another dorm aka Seroja, threw another surprise party for me. This time, we had a fantastic meal. We ate cake (made of three different types of chocolate), red eggs again, plenty of junk food, ahem ahem (something illegal in the camp), jelly, biscuits, chocolates, cookies and KFC ( i didn't get to eat the KFC because i have to go to church). And of course, we sang 3 versions of birthday songs (english, mandarin and cantonese)

Last but not least, at night, another party was thrown. This was the utter most surprising party. My teacher aka Cikgu Lili was the mastermind with my performance leaders aka Pee and Akila. They started off by pretending to be angry and disappointed with the performance team. Some of us even cried. Then suddenly, we were asked to close our eyes. A birthday cake was brought in and birthday songs in 4 versions were sang ( malay, english, mandarin and cantonese) . I was shocked. My teacher hugged me and everyone else followed. I was touched once more. :)

This year of 2010, was the best birthday for me. Among the gifts i have received so far were a labu sayong with biscuits and chocolates (from my NS darling and my NS darling rival), a red egg with a red ribbon tied to it (unknown source but i suspect an Alamanda), a jambu (from a malay friend in Seroja), a card (from the Chinese Alamandas), a landyard ( from my NS twin) , a portable harddisc ( from my dad), 2 soft toys (from Alien, Ah Khai and Mr Baa in Taiping), a pendrive (from my sis), a laptop cooler ( from my sis) and a keychain (from Shenn Ni and Shenn Kuan).

Now, this is certainly the ultimate birthday for me! ^.^

9th of March

My last morning in NS. Ah! I can't believe that NS is finally over. Bye bye to morning PT. Sayurnara to role call. Adios to waking up at 4.30am.

I know that I am supposed to be happy but somehow another i got this strange feeling. I may not miss NS but i certainly missed the people in it. @.@ After 2 months plus of suffering, we have developed a strong bond between the trainees. Together, we have washed the toilet. Together, we have done punishments. Together, we ate and together, we slept. Back in the camp, we have no one but each other. Despite of the poor condition of my dorm, i missed Alamanda. Despite of a certain group of irritation people in my kompeni, i missed Alpha. Despite of the horrible food in the camp, i missed the canteen. So, now what? All, i could hoped for is that all of our friendships in NS will last for a lifetime

16th of February

Hmm, at 3pm, i'll would begin my long journey back to my prison aka NS camp. T^T So, this would be my last words before leaving. Listen carefully and appreciate all of my words. You might not hear from me again. Choi choi! It wasn't as if i'll be dying. LOL. I am just joking. Stay with me. I'll be back!!

Before this post, all i have been blogging about is my complaints about NS. Well, today i will change my course into the positive view. :) NS is not all that bad. If i did not get some kind of allergy reaction there (refer to a post called 4th of February), i would be rather happy to be in NS. If i have the skin which can never grow darker, i would say my blessings to God. All in all, NS isn't as bad as it sounds. Afterall, we eat SIX times a day! (six again).

I must admit that the food isn't all the nice. Then again, what can we expect? We are undergoing NS. We certainly can't expect 5 star classed food.Besides, through my experience in NS, i have learnt to appreciate food. Last time, back at home, i'll never touch an empty bun. I would not eat a simple slice of bread coated in butter and sugar. I will be reluctant to eat strange-looking food. But now, you could almost say that i am a changed person. I eat whatever served to me unless i want to eat plain white rice. Whenever they served bread/bun, i would eat it without complaining. In fact, i sort of like eating bread/bun. My taste buds had changed. I have been eating food that i dislike for more then a month that now i am rather fond of them.

As for our activities, we certainly DON'T march the whole day, 7 days in a week. So far, from the first day i am in NS till now, we have only marched twice. For me, once as i was in MC during the second marching activity. We spend most of our time in class doing typical school stuff. Some of us, me most probably, find the classes boring but some actually have fun in the classes. We were given magic colours with workbooks ! We even have games in class! Each class will have two teachers. The teachers will take turns crapping in front. Who cares! i usually turn a deaf ear and try my very best not to sleep. I would rather stay in class with the fans then to go out in the sun. So, i am fine with the classes.

Then, about the morning excercise. Sure that we have to wake up early and etc but do you know that every morning at 6.15am, we get the golden opportunity to see the stars? Back in my NS camp, we would dragged ourselves to the marching field sleepily. Once we are there, we would lie on our back and admire the stars above. In my entire life, i have never seen such many beautiful and bright starts. We could actually point out the Northen Star and Aquarious! Now, that is an experience of a lifetime. We are also fortunate enough to have a gorgeous scenery around our camp. We have trees and mountains surrounding us. In the morning and evening or after raining, mist can be seen gathering at the mountain top. We also watched the sun rise and set everyday. Besides, exercising is good for health! One might actually grow thinner. :)

Physical activities might be a problem as we are exposed to the hot sun but...there is always a but..the teachers aren't that cruel. Sometimes, they are considerate enough to give us a break in the shade. Some, physical activity are fun. Marching is of course not one of them. Kayak-ing, shooting, flyingfox, running across obstacle course, 'tali rendah', jungle tracking and the art of self defense are some of the fun physical activities. Sometimes, instead of having these activities, we have talks instead. Okay, that might be boring but its the best time to catch up some sleep. :)

The most important thing of all is that we managed to expand our circle of friends in NS. Like me who's terrible in Mandarin, have an okay Cantonese, speaks with a slang of almost perfect Malay and a 99.99% perfection of English have a tiny bit of difficulty in making friends as a majority of the Chinese there speak Mandarin and have a poor command of Cantonese,Malay and English. But, i am proud to say that, the Chinese and a certain others are very friendly. They were patient with my lacked of communication skill. They helped me when i am in need. There are of course still some that are 'not so nice' but the good outweights the bad. I am glad that i was given a chance to know these good people. May God bless them all!

15th of February

My last day at home. Tomorrow, i will be going back to my NS camp before 5pm. Sighed. Such saddening news. Then, it might be a long time before i will have any access to internet. Today, i'll be blogging about the pitiful condition of my dorm's toilets/sinks/bathrooms.

Every dorm have their own place of toilets/sinks/bathrooms. In my opinion, the worst is most probably my dorm's. Want to know why? Well, you see, most of these facilities are unusable. Firstly, its the toilets. We have about six toilets. The first and the second are the sitting kind. I don't know about the first as i have never used it. The second's button for flushing is very loose. One will have to press it several times according to your luck just to get it to flush. Hmm, the third toilet is my favourite. Its almost perfect except for the fact that you have to jump to your left before flushing as somehow water will splash out towards the right side (at first, it was fine but somewhere recently, someone broke the toilet). The fourth is jammed from the beginning ( i learnt it the hard way...UGH!! It was a terrible experience) while the fifth and sixth were rumoured to be jammed as well. So, in all my times in NS, i will only use the third toilet.

Next is about the sinks. Again, we have six sinks. The first, second and third sink have leaks either at the tap or at the pipe. Only, the fourth, fifth and sixth are considered perfect except for the fact that the water flows very slow. After that is the bathrooms. we have 6 bathrooms. My camp seemed to like the number 6 a lot. Did you noticed that we have SIX toilets, SIX sinks and SIX bathrooms? We also have SIX designed areas for washing clothes.

Back to the bathrooms, there are three important aspects to evaluate. Number one is about the latch. Number two is about the hook to hang the clothings. Number three is about the water flow. The first bathroom is perfect in most ways but it doesn't have a latch. One can't lock the door in the first bathroom. The second bathroom is the best, my favourite as it has a latch, a place to hang your cloth and a perfect water flow. The third is almost perfect. It has a latch and a place to hang clothes. Well, the problem is that water from the fourth, fifth and sixth bathroom will flow into the third bathroom. In other words, if the last three bathroom are occupied and you are in the third bathroom, you will have to bear with the massive water flow from other 3 bathrooms. Goodness know what is the content of those water. The last three bathrooms have latch and acceptable water flow but they do not have any hooks to hang one's clothes. For me, i'll only use the first and second bathroom. I certainly can't stand having other people's bath water with me or without any hooks to hang my clothes. It would be troublesome. The absence of a latch is acceptable as my dorm had devised an unspoken law which is no one is to open the door of the first bathroom if its close. One can only enter the first bathroom if the door is wide open.

So, that is all for today! Good night and sleep tight!

14th of February

Ohohoho. Its Valentine's Day and its also the first day of the Chinese New Year. Two in one festival mix! :) Anyway, i'll be going on with my NS experience.

The dorm that i am living in is called Alamanda. My dorm is the closest to the public phone, to the entertainment room (there's a TV in it) , nearest to the entrance, with the most number of Chinese / Perak people and the dorm which is currently black-listed.

Being the closest to the public phone, we the Alamandas do not need to queue up for the phone. We will just poke our head out to check up the line. If there is someone there or the queue is too long, we will just go back and rest in the dorm. Despite of being the nearest to the entertainment room, we the Alamandas seldom enter the room. Trainees from other dorm play and make a mess in it. Whenever the irritating entertainment room is in a mess, guess who get the scoldings/ punushments and the cleaning work? Tada! Its none other then the Alamandas. Life is never fair. Just because we are the nearest, it doesn't mean that we are the ones making a mess in it.

Next, being the nearest to the entrance meant that the very first dorm that the teacher will be passing through will be my dorm. Due to this very factor, a certain teacher seemed to be able to find fault with my dorm. First, it was because of the arrangement of slippers. Secondly, its about the corridor light. Then, its about her being suspicious about us the Chinese Alamandas talking bad about the Muslims. After that is about the noise we make in the dorm. Next is about again the Chinese Alamandas being too sexy in the dorm (ahem ahem this is of course not me).

Some of the people in my dorm suspect that the certain teacher dislikes the Chinese and since my dorm got the most Chinese, she always picked on us. Its just that during ALL the times that particular teacher scolded/punished us, the only ones in the dorm is the Chinese. So, its that just a coincidence or what?

About the black-listing, there is a time where the teachers did an inspection of cleaning which all the dorms failed and my dorm was considered the worst. A certain not so nice item used by females for a week once in a month was found stucked in one of the toilets which lead to it being jammed. Well, the thing is that, most of us the Alamandas aren't from Alamanda from the beginning. We are the unfortunate ones kicked out from our former dorm and into this dorm. We often referred ourselves as 'orang yang terbuang'. The annoying dorm teachers are supposed to create a harmony variety of races and states in a dorm. And it seemed that there are too many Perak people. Due to that, most of the Perak people got kicked into Alamanda. Due to this, somehow more then 90% of the people in my dorm are from Perak and we got the most number of Chinese. I do wonder, where is the harmony variety of races and states in my dorm? And from the very first day of us being in Alamanda, that stupid toilet is already jammed and we never used it. Now, we are being marked as the dirtiest dorm. Now, tell me, is this fair?

13th of February

The daily routine of an NS trainee is rather boring and irritating actually. Firstly, we started our day with good-old PT which meant morning exercise. The Muslim will go for their solat at 5.45am while the non-Muslims are to report for duty at the marching field by 6.15am. Most of the non do not bathe in during that time but i am the exceptional. I will wake up either earlier then the Muslims or at 5.45am to bathe before going for PT.

PT is a must for the weekdays. The weekends are our day of rest. For every morning during the weekdays, we do stretching, jogging and exercise except Thursdays where we will be doing aerobics. At 7.30am, breakfast will be given. For breakfast, we either have fried kuey tau/bihun/mee or nasi lemak or soto or kuey tau soup. Then, a miserable amount of time will be given to us to clean the dorm/toilet and to change clothing for the motivating classes. For every Monday, i will have to clean/wash the toilet

All trainees must report themselves by 'kompany' before 8.20am. The classes began at 9.00am. 4o minutes will be wasted with the trainees being bored to death by the teachers who either give us a lecture or more scoldings. At, 10.30am, we have a short break for our morning tea and the classes continued till 12.30am where we will be eating our lunch. After that, we have till 2.15pm to mind our own business. i usually take that time to bathe, phone my parents, wash clothes and to sleep. At 2.15pm, we will once more report our presence and at 2.30pm physical activities like marching, kayak, obstacle course, the arts of self defense, jungle tracking and etc will be held. Sometimes, if we are lucky, we get some talks.

This will go on till 4.30pm where we will be having our tea. Then, we have to change clothes to 'baju PT' for some 'riadah' from 5.30pm to 6.30 pm. One can either play badminton/football/volleyball/netball or jog or skip with a skipping rope or play with boardgames during 'riadah'. Some people, spend their time chatting. We will have our dinner at 6.30pm. After dinner till 8.45pm is our free period. Once again, i'll be bathing, calling my parents, cleaning the dorm and perhaps sleep if i have the time. At 9.00pm, we either have some stupid video classes or speeches or they just waste our time in the hall till 10.30pm where we will be eating our supper. After that, orders will be given to us about the time that the lights should be turned off. Its usually 11.30pm. They give us about 30 minutes to prepare ourselves for bed.

If we were to involve in any sort of performance, we will be excused from morning excercise, the classes and night activities sometimes 'riadah' too as during that time, they would be practising whatever that they are performing. The performers will sleep at about 12.30pm and wake up before 7.30am for breakfast.

12th of February

Muahahahaha!!!! I am back from NS for the CNY holidays!!! I have been waiting for this moment for a very long time. I supposed you would want to hear about my lovely NS adventures. So, let's not waste any time and i shall start now. :)

NS also known as National Service is a program created by our extremely-clever-government. For some of us, NS is also called 'an ass'. In NS, we were given 3 sets of clothings, two of each type. Firstly, we have some sportswear which is called as 'baju PT'. Next, we have some classwear (some say its the best-looking uniform but for me, it looks horrible) known as 'baju kelas'. Last but not least, we have our very own NS army clothes or more commonly known as 'baju celoreng'. Each set of clothing comes with their very own type of shoes and socks. All in all, we have three types of shoes, three types of socks and three types of uniforms. For, your information, all of the guys' uniform except 'baju celoreng' have lovely short sleeves unlike the girls, we have long sleeves for every type of our uniforms.

Now, i shall give you the rating of hotness wearing those rather troublesome uniforms. Second runner up goes to 'baju PT'. Despite of its long sleeves and its thick material with its rather ugly colour shade of blue and weird-looking black pants with padded cottons on its knees, its considered the best among the three uniform as it traps the least heat. The first runner up goes to the 'baju kelas' aka the sauna uniform (It looks rather like a fractory uniform, with two shades of blue and a black slacks). At a first glance, one would actually think that its cooling wearing them as it looked as if its made from some thin material. All of us, the NS trainees were cheated. The moment we wore them, all surrounding air are cut off from our skin. Honestly, not even a fraction of air could penetrate the uniform! The champion is of course the 'baju celoreng' (some uniform, dark blue in colour with white and green stripes). In reality, the material for the 'baju celoreng' permits more air to enter the uniform then the 'baju kelas' but the problem its that this particular unifrom have too many layers. Firstly, we have to wear an inner shirt, celoreng long pants and long grey socks ( When i say long, i really meant it. The socks are super long). Next, we add a layer of celoreng coat (long sleeved) with its thick black belt. Last but not least, we have to wear big thick heavy black spike boots and a black baret. Hmm, we do have another unifrom known as half-loreng but we only wear those during community service. Half -loreng is wearing the shirt of 'baju PT' with the pants and belt of the 'baju celoreng'.

I hoped i have managed to get your imagination running about the NS clothings. LOL. Anyway, that is all that i will blog for today. Tomorrow, i will be posting about the daily life of an NS trainees.

4th of February

Yo !!! I am back from NS...well....at least for a few days. :( Just for your information, i have gotten a serious allergy in NS. Due to the reason that i am not getting any better but worst, the 'kind' commander decided to send me home. I was released at 5pm on tuesday and i am expected to report back tomorrow at 5pm also which is a friday. Ah!! Still its better then nothing.

Now, about my allergy. I had developed some skin coloured rashes on my third week in NS. Naturally, being me, i complained a lot and my NS friend accompany me to the medic. From then onwards, i have been getting worst. I was injected once in the arm, once in the waist and once on my main vain which is situated in my hand near to my wrist. The cream, tablets , lotion and injections given to me were useless. My locker in NS is full with the medicine given to me by the medic. I could almost opened a pharmacy. @.@ By that time, the skin coloured rashes became bigger, redder, itchy and it sort of spread to my uninfected body parts. The rashes started on my lower and upper limbs. After that, it went to my neck and face. Soon, my hands, legs, neck was covered with ugly irritating itchy red rashes. I was very much depressed by my allergy.

I went on complaining to the medic. I became some sort of their regular customer. The medic agreed that i am certainly not getting any better. They decided to send me to a clinic in Lenggong. There, i was given more cream and tablets. Still, i did not get any better. My face started showing signs of redness and rashes. Next, they send me to the Hospital Kuala Kangsar. The moment i stepped into the doctor's room, his first words are....'Wah !!! Seriusnya. Kenapa sekarang baru datang ke hospital? Sepatutnya, kamu harus dah lama datang ke sini....' And so, i got my 4 days of MC. Being a good patient, i applied their cream and ate their medicine. Still, i kept on getting worst. My neck and ears became swollen. My rashes kept on becoming worst. My parents told me to stop their medications. So, i stopped. On my day of appointment with the hospital, the medic wasted my time and did not send me to the hospital. What is worst is that 2 irritating, good-for-nothing teachers suspect that i am lying about my allergy. Crazy people!! How in the world, am i supposed to fake rashes and swollen? Take a red markerpen and draw it on my skin???

Okay. I admit that i got pissed and told my parents about it. What happened next was rather interesting. :) That very night, my brilliant mother called the medic and gave them a lecture. Go, mummy !!! (I didn't know about this call) The following day, somewhere at 8.30 am, my name was announced in the speaker and was asked to see the medic. I was of course shocked. In the medic, i was told to tell my mother not to call them at night and etc. At. 9.45am, i was send to the Hospital Kuala Kangsar through the emergency way. They took me into ER and started poking holes into me. They have to poke me twice just to get a sample of my blood. Stupid people. Pity me! I have to bear the pain twice! They even wanted to put me on IV. Scary!!! Luckily, some doctor walked by and stopped them. Next, the nurse wheeled me (yes!!! on the wheelchair!!! it was rather fun) to the doctor. To make the long story short, my doctor was worried and he got an appointment for me to a skin specialist in Ipoh on the 9th of February. I got more cream and tablets again from the hospital and another 4 days of MC. During the time i am in the hospital, my dad called my camp and complained a lot. When i came back, i told my mother about the poking holes and the IV. I went on with my NS life and entered some kebudayaan class happily. What i didn't know is that during that time, my dad called the camp commander and insisted on taking me home as i am getting worst. Surprisingly, my dad succeeded!! Go, daddy!!!! The next minute i know, i am asked to fill some sort of form and was also asked to pack my stuff. And...tada! I am home before 5.30pm!

2nd of January

My last day of freedom and happiness. Tomorrow i'll depart from Taiping to Sauk, Kuala Kangsar. No more internet. No more games. No more TV. Bye bye to my comfy bed. Sayurnara to anime. Adios to my no limit phone usage. This is very depressing. I have a mixture of feeling now. Should i be happy or sad? Afterall, not everybody got NS. Am i considered lucky or unlucky? Sighed. I think i am more to depress now. @.@ I certainly hope that i won't cry tonight.

1st of January

Sighed. NS is 1 and a half day away. T^T My parents wouldn't budge an inch on letting me bear arms in NS. Its a no no for them for me to hold a gun. This is rather depressing. What's the use of going to NS if i am not given a chance to bear arms? Sighed. No matter what i say, they wouldn't change their mind. That's the end of my hope of holding a gun. I feel like cursing them but i suppose they did what they thought is right. Well, they do have more experience then i do living in this horrible world. I guess, i'll just have to follow their judgement no matter how i think. Bye bye M16. I'll miss you.