28 July

Being 18 years' old does not seemed as great as one often heard. When, one is below 18, he or she would be wondering what is life like at 18. When they are 18, they would be thinking 'Okay, i am 18. So, what??'. I know this based on personal experience. I had been 18 since the 28 of February and i do not feel any different. In fact, i felt worst. Life in a government school is so 'spoon-feeding' compared to life in college. Now, i am forced to do my own researches and basicly study without much help compared to last time where i had tuition teachers. Here, i am also forced to manage my own life aka food and clothes. I have to bear responsibility for all my actions. My parents are no longer by my side to take charge. Some might find this sense of freedom overwhelming while others find it entertaining. To me, i would rather be stucked in a bird-cage with a loving owner but who can stop time for me? Nobody. Thus, i had to survive on my own. No matter how unpleasant or miserable my life is now, i have no choice but to go on. I cannot control my present life, but i can certainly control my future life by doing my best now.

7th of July

Life is so pathetic for me. I could never seemed to achieve the grades that i wanted. I almost gotten my first A in economics! Then, just because i didn't write 'in conclusion' i lost my A. It was so near yet so far for me to get an A. Maybe i didn't try my best. Maybe, i should study damn hard. Ah, i don't know. All i know is that if i don't get my A ASAP, i'll surely die in my parents' hands.

5th of July

My life had pretty much remained the same from the past few months. It is always exam, assignments, deadlines and presentations. I supposed for those who do not know me well, they might actually think that i am a hermit crab or worst a bookworm. But then again, maybe after coming to KL, i did changed. Whether it is for the better or for the worst, that i do not know. Though, i certainly hope that all my efforts in this course will be paid off by the end of the year.