Life can be a funny thing. When you least expect it, it gives you what you desire the most in the world several months ago. During that moment, you would be so stunned that you started grinning like an idiot for some time. You would laugh at insignificant things and pay closer attention to stuffs that you would normally brushed aside. After several hours, you would look at your granted desire, thinking what is the matter with you. You should have moved on with life, leaving that particular desire in the drain. Why does it still effects you that much? Why? There's only one reason for it. You are unable to forget the past. Deep inside, you still yearn for it. You cannot let go. All i could say is LET IT GO, PARTNER!